Blur the lines.

currently sitting in alyssa’s dorm room while she’s in class, art history @ 9:15! her roomates are pretty cool, except for one that i didn’t meet yet cause she was sleeping when we came to her room and apparently she’s a buzzkill that can’t properly wash dishes. i mean, i could’ve met her this morning while she was making a ton of noise about ten feet away from me, but i decided to play the whole fake sleeping part until she left… awkward. anyway, last night i drove out here to queens at like 9pm and got here at like 10pm. drove the wrong way down a one way street and almost got into a head on collision multiple times.. woops! hung out in danielle’s dorm room with her, one of her roomies and alyssa, watched rocky horror for about ten minutes, but decided to peace since it was getting late and danielle had to be up early for class. so, alyssa and i went back to her dorm room and skyped with her friends and were being funny.

i wish i went to college and dormed away from home and met cool people and didn’t have to sit on my bum all day doing nothing feeling like a complete idiot thats wasting her life away. maybe i should reconsider moving to virginia.. but i would miss the few friends i have way too much.

danielle and alyssa have left me and if things work out for both of them, so will amber and amanda :( ugh. i wish i were leaving too. i could if i wanted to in november, but that would be in the totally wrong direction location wise.

NYC > VA.

whoa, what a day/night. ihop, saying goodbye, sneaking into the venue, tour bus partying, center floor seats fo’ free, tbs+weezer+blink 182, tbs band members surrounding us, envy on the coast lead singer just chillen, making friends in the parking lot while everyone else is stuck in a traffic jam. amazing. randy did it once again :)

well, i’m convinced that i got food poisoning and i think it was from the witches brew from their delicious smore :( ugh. my stomach is killing me, i’m nauseated, i can barely feel my legs, i’m dehydrated, hungry and i have a big headache. it’s 4:32am and i cannot sleep. i wish i could magically be better!

i am so over mosquito bites, but i’ll never be over demi lovato’s new album.
its currently on repeat.

the air is cranked up in my room, yet i’m still sweating profusely :| ugh. my day went as follows: beachbeachbeach, shower, wendys. spent the majority of my night hanging out at dairy barn with alyssa and sean messing around and locking him out. amber worked really late tonight in the city and we were all gonna go out to celebrate kelly’s birthday way early, but that didn’t go as planned. atleast it’s not like today was her actual birthday and we couldn’t make it.. so we still have time to celebrateeeee!

anyway, i currently have so many mosquito bites on the back of both of my legs (either from jessie’s house or from the beach, i really don’t know) that it looks like i have hives all over, which totally skeeves me out. hopefully they’ll go away soon becauase i don’t really think i can deal with them any longer. barf.

i discovered new music that my 10th grade self would absolutely love the other day, and i cannot stop listening to it + paramore’s new song ^

jessie’s house tonight with alyssa, danielle, lisa, naomi and rasheem. pool, pizza, smores, strawberries, lola the not-so-small puppy<3, gossip, stories and fun times. i’m going to miss jessie so much, i hope she comes home to visit. i’d visit her, but i’m too scared to get on a plane/go to new orleans. then starbucks and driving around with amberrrrr for the rest of the night. love life, love mah friends :)

i guess white lighters really are bad luck, i had too much faith in mine.

sitting here eating a chalupa, trying to figure everything out. so today i applied to joyce leslie, forever21, torrid, h&m and charlotte russe. hopefully i get a call from someone and get a job already. the girl that helped me pick out my amazing shoes yesterday at charlotte russe took my application and said she’d most likely call me tonight for an interview tomorrow. cross your fingers!

fabulous new shoes<3!!

lying in bed listening to sleepy music trying to fall asleep but its not quite working. beatstock was tonight which was okay, the backstreet boys only performed three songs which was so lame but whatever. i was home by 9:30pm and did nothing for the remainder of the evening.

i really wish amanda and i could’ve visited nia yesterday whilst in the city but we were soso sleepy by the time the concert was over. it would’ve felt like old times except amber wasn’t there :( boo. anyway, i need to con someone into coming with me to smelly jersey to see demi on the 22nd! hmm.. maybe we can make like a weekend thing out of it and stay there for a little. haaa who am i kiddinggg, i am dead broke as usual..

time for sleep now :|

O.A.R. tonight was amazing. they are awesome live and the whole atmosphere was the best. everyone was chill, drunk/high and just lovin’ it all :) yet another successful concert experience with amanda! let’s see if we can make the 25th happen. also, text message conversation between james and i during the concert:

right about now i miss your brother
how do you think i feel bud :\ and as stupid as it sounds i miss rob too
fuck him, your bro is the real hero
i know and you’re 100% right but like how can i not yah know? he even introduced me to O.A.R. so of course that’ll always make me think of him
he introduced me too but fuck him, he moved on just like me
you’re right! fuck him!
he’s a nigga
bah, and a baby daddy

tonight was the best.

wtf! when did america’s best dance crew start again?! so unfair. i missed the first episode ;(

LOL i just realized that when you leave tumblr up, if someone posts a new entry a little red notification pops up by the tumblr logo and tells you how many new ones there are! :)

today was good, hung out with scott for a while and caught up on everything. he leaves in 15 days, barf. i’ll miss him. the rest of the day was spent playing on my iPhone, making cool ringtones and organizing pictures. steph and i attempted to watch the “meteor shower”, which only resulted in what seemed like a bath in OFF and a trip to walgreens to pick up my newest addiction… flipz. gah!

possibly one of the best nights of my life, maybe even the highlight of my summer. i woke up early this morning feeling the worst and had horrible chest pains. took a nap and awoke to harry potter on my tv and my phone going off. the whole day turned around when randy said he could get me and whoever else into blink 182 for free. VIP entry and lounge, met fall out boy/took a picture with pete wentz, good seats, free shirt and stickers, chester french + panic! at the disco + fall out boy + blink 182, tour bus after party and my very own blink guitar pick. randy is the best ever and i’m soso glad i met him.

i love life, everything that matters the most is just falling into place and i feel so good.

sitting here listening to brand new thinking of old times. i was so excited thinking my iphone was coming today when in actuality its stuck in bethpage and i won’t be getting it ‘til monday because theres no mail on sundays >:| fuck! anyway, my new clothes come on wednesday and thats another thing to look forward to along with O.A.R. and beatstock in like a week. things are going good for now, but i still need to find a job and return movies to the library and get new books and pick up scott’s graduation gift. oh my!

did a little bit of shopping since mama got paid today. made turkey tacos for dinner and realized how much i love them + green bell peppers. then saw the ugly truth and it was superr funny. thankyou for calling me. i hope my iphone comes in the mail tomorrow!

(513): CONFIRMATION: i wiki searched it and Justin Bieber is 15 not 13. so i dont feel like as much of a pedofile now….

YES!

ps: i want to live a different life/go back to the hamptons.

oh. my. god. i have the worst, gut wrenching stomach ache of the century. fuck my life.

taylor swift < taylor swift’s lyrics.

“Just walk away, no use defending words that you will never say
And now that I’m sitting here thinking it through
I’ve never been anywhere cold as you.”

last night was the best because i spent it with people i actually like rather than with a bunch of homo’s HA. williamsburg and eastern europe and taco bell and freezing in the ice cube that is my room and waking up 10 minutes too late. uhhhh, i really want to move out now. bye!

We can’t stop the world, but there’s so much more that we could do.
You can’t stop this girl, from falling more in love with you.
You said ‘Nobody has to know, give us time to grow and take it slow.’
But I’d stop the world, if it’d finally let us be alone.

last night was a lot more fun than expected. going 5-2 in beer pong with amanda, playing infront of her dad, attempting to be civil with her brother and chit-chatting about tom with some old friends. my feet hurt, but it was worth it. time for round 2 tonight, hopefully no drama.

took some sleeping pills and slept the day away. anyway, this weekend is sure to be eventful. two grad parties, unwanted guests and lots of alcohol, i’m hoping. it’s already august which means a few things:

• O.A.R. in the city in 14 days
• Beatstock to see the Backstreet Boys in 15 days
• possibly seeing Demi Lovato again in NJ on the 22nd
• hopefully getting a job once people start leaving for school

in other news; mark’s cousin, i think, friend requested me on facebook… ?