I’m never speaking up again, it only hurts me
I’d rather be a mystery than she desert me
Oh, I’m never speaking up again, starting now.
One more thing, why is it my fault?
So maybe I try too hard, but it’s all because of this desire
I just wanna be liked, I just wanna be funny
Looks like the jokes on me, so call me captain backfire.
ohhhhh john mayer.
speaking of which, its immesely raining at the moment. i know how it would feel to live in forks, haha.
i had the oddest dream last night, but i definitely knew i was dreaming at one point and forced myself to wake up. i can’t let myself think that things are going to go back to a way they once were, i can’t let myself think that i’ll ever be that happy.
hate ‘em or love ‘em for the same reasonnnnnnn.
well, last night/this morning was rather eventful. after spending almost two hours standing in the pouring rain with amber in SoHo waiting to get into an art show, we’re told that their filled to capacity and most likely no one else would be getting in. pizza was devoured after that, followed by hanging out in the FIT dorms and later experiencing fancy livin’ at the Radisson on 32nd and Broadway all night with *famous skateboarders. oh, and you can’t forget my 5:11am train home to the island. the things i do..
:)
* = the clothing line; as in travis barker.
sexy-stinky man. lovely. i just picked up his issue of GQ, yum.
i really need a nap, a haircut and some money. that is all :)
i’m not sure what’s wrong here. i mean, did i do something wrong? or are you not talking to me because you think you’re too good now… ? hmm.
i wish i was better at drawing and such. i mean, i can look at things and possibly mimick them and try to make it look good, but i have no basic creativity. i suck. but i can shade if my life depended on it :)
“If I’m going to be anything more than average; if anyone’s going to remember me, then I need to go further.. in art, in life, in everything.”
i cannot wait to see little ashes.
last night was super fun. stayed the night at FIT :)
i really wish we could all follow through with the whole ‘looking for apartments and moving into one’ thing because i would love to get outta my house and live with all of my friends and work a steady job.
off to the twilight dvd release party with my sister in a bit.
happy saint patrick’s day!
thanks mom :)
is it thursday yet?
i watched panic room and lords of dogtown today. i totally forgot nikki reed was in it, and i re-discovered my love for emile hirsch.
tom just asked me if i wanted to go to virginia for a few days to see andrea. awkward? but getting away does sound like a lot of fun, even though i don’t want to take a plane.
i watched jarhead today for the first time in awhile. i forgot how much i loved that movie and jake gyllenhaal especially, yumm.
i love driving into the city, driving around in the city, driving through brooklyn, driving all over the island and being with good friends.
i couldn’t ask for a better life, although i know i’m missing a few things.. i still think my life is top notch.
WOOP WOOP! ITS THA SOUND OF THA PO-LICE!
…They have a name for someone who smells the way Bella does for me. They call her my singer - because her blood sings for me.”
^ yes, please?
…
is it the weekend yet?
………..
no wonder you have zero friends.
……
i think i’ve become nocturnal. its 6:30AM, time for bed!
i have an immense headache.
this weekend has been rather eventful to say the least. lets hope my weekends start to pick up, or i’ll probably die of boredom on this stupid fucking island.
currently: motel and skeet are sitting in skeet’s car in a mcdonald’s parking lot waiting for save and flyt… bleh.
i fucking hate chris brown and i hope he goes to jail.
oh, and pfcscarfo has a girlfriend.
i’m so sick of this snow, the cold and all of this bullshit. i need summer, now.
“Certain people you just can’t trust, you know Luke? Never trust anyone who doesn’t smoke pot or listen to Bob Dylan. Never trust anyone who doesn’t like the beach. Never, EVER, EVER trust anyone who says they don’t like dogs! You meet someone who doesn’t like dogs you alert the authorities IMMEDIATELY and you sure as SHIT don’t MARRY THEM”
went to ollie’s point tonight with my mom to see paging grace. the show was really great, they sounded awesome, and i missed them tons. i would’ve had more fun if i were drinkinggggg, but its okay! haha, i didn’t wanna ask my mom to buy me a beer; it’d be weird. oovoo owned my life tonight, for i was on it for hours with maria and michelle. then PJ and ashlynn joined in and it was pretty funnnnn.
hopefully going to get another tattoo with amber tomorrow! but we’ll see.
